Catch up!

I haven't posted in a long, long while. I can't tell you what I've forgotten to journal. I'll just start again last friday night.

Friday, July 19th - Ashley and I went to Indian food. She didn't like it and thats okay.We also went to the liquor store and the grocery store before joining the boys at Jeremys house. I drank a lot. A lot, a lot. I don't remember what happened after a certain point. Apparently, I had fun.

Saturday - I've never been so sick in my life! And we went to Kings Island anyway. Eventually I started feeling like a human again. I actually liked the roller coasters. Except Drop Tower. That was all kinds of horrible. All kinds.

Sunday I slept until I couldn't anymore. Then Krystal and I went on a hike. That was nice. I don't remember anything else.

Monday I think I spent the day at home after work, fixing my internet.

Tuesday I worked out with Ashley and then went on a "date" with Krystal.

Wednesday I hiked in the rain! With Jeremy and Krystal. And then I played pool with Jeremy, Matt, Ebony and a guy whose name I don't remember.

Thursday I went home from work sick!

Friday I hiked with Robbie and Jena after work and then went to Jeremys house to hang out with him and Krystal. Billie never showed up.Publish Post :(

Saturday I went to the greek fest with Robbie and then got a pedicure, manicure, haircut, and eyebrows waxed with Krystal before meeting Krystal, Ashley, and Jeremy for Qdoba, candy sushi, and Taboo. I freakin love taboo.

Sunday I slept in and then went hiking with Jeremy and his parents. We did the orange trail! And then chipoltle with Jeremy and Billy. I hadn't seen Billy for more than a week!

Thats all I've got. Maybe I'll remember random stuff and remember to tell you about it later.

Colbie Calliat is in my head all the time! (Sarah Jo)

Sunday started with me sleeping in and then going over to Katelyn's house to work on book two. Yes children, book TWO. We started the outline and then eventually I got tired of looking at the sun through the window so I told her I just HAD to go. I went home and changed and went for a run in Smith park. Now, I still suck at running but this time I actually enjoyed myself!

After the run I headed over to my aunts house because they were making me dinner for my birthday. It was a delicious salad and lasagna rolls. It was good. But that doesn't matter. What mattered was that I got to talk to Ashley and I realized that she and I strangers to one another but somehow she once again has a view of the world so much like mine that no one else could possibly understand so well. Maybe we had to do the weight loss/self discovery thing separately. Maybe that was part of the process. Maybe it was decided by the universe. But I feel like this is a new beginning. A new friend.

We went hiking after dinner and it was perfect. The weather and the sun and the trails were all just right and it was more excuses to talk to one another and be active at the same time! Then I drove home and I got to try on clothes that she gave me and I think I went to bed shortly after that. Didn't see the Three except for a few texts. That was okay.

I got called into work Monday and it was horrible but this blog is about after work stuff. So, after work Katie and Rachel took me to Amar India for dinner and we got appetizers and now I'm wondering why I've never done that before. Delicious! And after we got home from that, the Three picked me up and we went to Walmart and got face paint. The pictures of what ensued shall follow.

And apparently we are all making and taking quizzes on facebook right now. I'm scoring horribly. And I had to revise my quiz. Oh well. Now I'm sleepy!

He came back! (Sarah Jo)

Friday I was off work so I slept in late. And then I had to take my car to get that darn nail fixed. While that happened (for HOURS), I was at the mercy of my father for transportation. He took me to see the new house they want to rent and then we came home. I played PlayStation for awhile but my remote is broken somehow. So I talked to my family and that usually involves me being upset at the end. Eventually they called and said my car was ready but they want me to buy two new front tires and some other crazy stuff for five hundred dollars. I don't have that much money so I didnt buy said crazy stuff.

With my returned freedom, I went to Gabriel Brothers and Lane Bryant for dresses and new bras. Yes, I know I said I don't have money. Ignore that. See, Krystal has me wanting to be all girly and stuff. And I like that. On the way home from this trip I picked up Krystal and we went to my house so I could put on one of the dresses. After that part, we decided to go to Qdoba for dinner since Jeremy wasn't back from camp yet. On the way to Qdoba he texted us to invite us to Chipoltle with him. We agreed and went to the smoothie place to waste time while we waited for him.

So, we were really excited to see Jeremy, of course, and dinner was nice. I got to give him my 10 Things list and he seemed to like it. We dropped my car off at Krystals after that and went to Dave and Busters for billiards. I got grumpy during this part of the evening until Billy started texting me. I just kept thinking about how much more fun I would be having if he was there. Horrible.

After Dave and Busters we drove around a bit until Billy was off work. On the way to his house Jeremy pulled over and made Krystal get out of the car so they could have a private talk outside. Of course that meant I was sitting in the car staring off into space. Billy texted me to ask about our ETA and I told him what was happening. He asked where we were I and I told him it was just some side street near his house and I could see the oil changing place on verity from where we were parked. He told me not to move, he was on his way. Several minutes later we saw Billy RUNNING down the street. At like 2AM. He ran until he threw himself into Jeremy's arms and declared how much he missed his friend. Goodness.

We went to Jeremy's house after that and just talked to each other until the obscene hours of the morning. It was so nice to be all together again after a week. Jeremy decided we would all spend the night with him since he was too tired to drive us back to our cars. So we did. My mother called hysterical at 6AM and I had to patch that up and then fell back to sleep.

Saturday morning we parted ways for awhile. I went to the grocery and made corn casserole and salsa dip and took it to Jeremy's house for the 4th of July party thing there. We just hung around talked to his family and then ate dinner together and played with fireworks. Later, Billy came and we let off more fireworks before the rain came. Then we talked in the living room for awhile and after that we played card games over homemade ice cream and chips and dip. I didn't understand the first card game at all and it made me feel ridiculously stupid. I don't like feeling stupid. But we moved on. When it got late, Krystal and Billy and I went home.

Now, I'm kind of unhappy right now. I thought I had my feelings all straightened out. I told myself what I was and was not allowed to feel and that worked for more than a week. Maybe two! I don't remember. But nope. Apparently it doesn't work that way. So I'm going to have to find another solution. One that helps me sleep at night.

What happened to sleeping? (Sarah Jo)

I thought about hiking after work all day long. But then it was all cloudy and then a little rainy so we decided to cancel the hike and skip right to the El Rancho Grande part. I picked Billy up a little after 6:30 and there were all kinds of people at his house. His brother Kennedy/Davey was there and invited us to Dave and Busters with him. Billy was acting all strange like embarrassed and mad at the same time and I couldn't figure out what was going on. I tried to ignore it and just looked to Billy for guidance. His face said "No" and so I did too.

On the drive to Krystal's he just kept saying he was going to hurt his brother. I just forgot about the subject and hilarity at El Rancho Grande followed. Billy just got a Twitter last night and he enjoyed "twatting" all night long.

Oh. At El Rancho, Kennedy called Billy and after what sounded like an unhappy phone call, he announced that we would go to Dave and Busters with Kennedy and Tama. Then they called back and said we wouldn't go. Billy informed me that I would go with him and Kennedy and Tama in the future sometime. I asked why. Finally he explained that Kennedy likes to make him go on double dates about once or twice a year and it would be better if I went instead of some strange girl Kennedy found. Now I'm nervous that Kennedy is going to ask me how I feel about Billy. Billy told me to be truthful with him and tell him all kinds of bad things. I don't think Billy understands what the truth of this situation is. And I don't think he wants to know. And even more, I don't think he wants Kennedy to know. And I'm not a good liar. So I'm nervous.

I don't even remember half the stuff we laughed about but it was indeed amusing. After El Rancho we went to Coldstone. I'm a terrible driver while being amused. We took pictures of Billy during the Coldstone portion of the evening like with the sign and with Krystals purse. I'll try to post the pictures next.

Eventually we decided to play pool at Dave and Busters. It was a dirty, dirty game of pool. On the car ride there we somehow established that Krystal would take off her bra for a shoe. Then everything afterward was sexual innuendo. And Krystal smacked Billy's butt. I was going in for a pinch later and Billy turned around and said, "Why are you hissing like a snake?!?!" I got embarrassed and couldn't carry through with the deed. However, after pool was over and after the restroom break I worked up the courage and pinched him. He has a firm butt!

Somehow Billy said Krystal and I should wrestle naked in a pool of orange watermelon jell-o in his backyard while he watched. Also naked. And maybe he would join in. Ha!

Now I'm sleepy. And my face hurts from laughing.

Tuesday and MY BIRTHDAY! (Sarah Jo)

Tuesday . . .

I saw Katelyn after work and then I went home. Exciting, right?

MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

It started at 12:00 and my first text was from Jeremy. And then I continued to get texts/facebook wall posts/phone calls for the rest of the day. Made me feel loved. Though none of that was quite as awesome as Krystal decorating my car secretly in the night and then waking up early to hike through the spider infested forest with me. And she shows up at my house with a birthday card (my ONLY birthday card) and GRAPE GATORADE (my favorite!). And then she saved me from spiders and all manner of other creepy creatures.

We went shopping at target after that for leggins and girl products and also I got a belt and . . . something else I don't remember. We then had to rush home to actually get ready in time for lunch. I texted Billy because I was pretty sure he wouldn't be awake and he wasn't. Haha. When I picked him up he had that husky morning voice going on but he was friendly and I was much amused. He was already joking and made us laugh the whole way to Indian food and during lunch. I'm pretty sure the other people at the restaurant were disturbed. Oh well. Billy seemed to like his chicken tikka masala and I know I certainly enjoyed mine. He said he would try something different next time and Krystal and I both brightened up at the 'next time' because we like Indian food and we like spending time with Billy and that meant both would happen again in the future, right?

And then he invited us to run errands with him (he called it a road trip) and our condition was that smoothies would happen first. Krystal got her orange dream and I got sunrise sunset (with splenda, of course) and Billy got a chocolate peanut butter concoction that I'm pretty sure barely fit the definition of 'smoothie'. I suppose he enjoyed it though because he made lots of noises while eating it and then was sad when it was gone. We had a short restroom break at some gas station where I put air in my tires and Billy found the nail responsible for the air leak and then apparently decided he needed to drive my car. That was okay with me. I hate driving.

We first when to H&R Block where Krystal and I actually had to run out of the building because the mans hair was SO ridiculous. We left poor Billie alone there by himself. Poor guy. Then we went on an adventure to Kroger (without an S!), Walgreens, and was it a UPS store? to get a copy of Billy's drivers license and SS card.

(At this very moment I still feel those creepy spiders crawling along invisibly on my skin!)

So Billy drove us to the Monroe police station to drop of the copy and it was the first time it became real to me that Billy is going to be a police officer. I imagined him in uniform in one of those cars. It made me nervous for his safety. Haha. Then Jeremy texted to ask how my birthday was going and it made me glad that he actually thought of me and asked. After that Billy drove us to his house to drop him off. This is when we implemented Krystal's genius idea of taking a picture of us with a "Miss You!" sign to text to Jeremy. I hope he got it. It was cute. (She is SO thoughtful. You should see it in action.) Krystal and I then went to my work to visit and do birthday stuff there. No more SARAH JO, by the way.

Mmm.... oh, then we got frozen yogurt and then we cleaned all the marker off my car with really, really smelly gas station squeegee things. This made me miss Jeremy so much. Stupid feelings. Then I took her home? And went home myself to harvest pumpkins and plant strawberries and generally be a computer nerd. I checked the weather again and it looked like no bike ride.

Robbie picked me up later and we went to his house so he could wash his face. Silly. And he showed me all the interesting stuff in his room. I was surprised that he had notes I wrote him on his bulletin board and in a little ceramic bowl thing. It made me feel. . . like I mattered to someone. I once wrote him a list of 10 things I liked about him because I said something not nice to him and in class we had learned that it takes 10 nice things to erase one bad thing said. That was on the bulletin board. It made me smile.

After that we went to the Broad Street Bash. This is something that happens in Middletown apparently every other Wednesday or so. There is a band playing in Governors square and all kinds of festival things like blow up bouncys and funnel cakes, beer, and dirty people. The singer guy was wearing a skirt and I couldn't tell from where I was standing, but I'm guessing eye make-up too. It was ridiculous. It was hilarious. It started to rain so we walked back to the car where we saw Johnna. I hugged her uterus like me made up at my 100lbs lost party. She forgot and then remembered what the heck I was doing. We decided to plan another laser tag even where everyone would actually go.

Then Robbie and I headed to Chipoltle at Bridgewater Falls. We talked about church camp alot and that made me wonder what Jeremy was up to and if he was enjoying camp as much as Robbie enjoyed his memories of camp last year. Robbie said he didn't want to come home from camp when it was over. I hope Jeremy wants to come home. I sure miss him. I already said that.

After Chipoltle we went to Dicks to look at backpacking stuff . I kept thinking of Ashley and how far away she is from me and how very much she would have liked to be there. And after the hiking equipment it was time for a bathroom break. I came out and Robbie was no where to be seen but I get a text message that says: I just wanted to send you birthday text, birthday text. . . Of course, you have to imagine this to the tune of 'Birthday Sex' and you also have to know that I once planned to rewrite the song so it WAS 'Birthday Text'. I laughed out loud all alone in the bike section. Before they closed we played on all the exercise equipment and lifted weights. I think I flashed the whole (empty) store when trying to do the ab lounge in a dress. Haha.

After that we tried to go to coldstone. Closed. Panera. Closed. And then Max and Ermas for delicious cookies. Open! It took half an hour for fifteen minute cookies but we talked and laughed and talked about how much we liked each other for the half hour. When the cookies arrived, Robbie wrote me a message on the box. It said that birthday cookies are much better then birthday sex. Though, truthfully, neither one of us has knowledge enough to back up that statement with experience. Oh well. We decided to eat these cookies in the car and lots of them ended up in our laps. This is okay as a passenger but its not so safe to go chocolate chip fishing in your lap while driving. Just sayin. There were six cookies and I had to force, yes FORCE, Robbie to eat three. Who ever thought the day would come when I would have to make the boy eat something? Goodness.

(I keep seeing spiders in my peripheral vision and then its just my curls!)

And finally I got home to harvest strawberries and plant peppers and text my friends and type until my fingers hurt! Now, I know I've already written a lot and that's because the day was so great that I don't want to forget any part of it. And I already know I forgot to write the jokes like having guacamole in your bottom lip and laminating testicles. It makes me sad that I'll forget stuff. But I sorta want to talk about my feelings now.

I had so much fun! And I felt so loved by all my friends with their calls and texts and messages and time and attention. But then I felt just a little sad too. I kept it in a small compartment somewhere behind the delight and just left of the surprise. But I decided to pay attention to it right now. Okay. I'm going to go ahead and ignore it and move on now. Stupid feelings.

(I seriously can't believe you read THAT much about one passioning day!)

I'm in trouble! (And a week past due...) (Sarah Jo)

So... we'll do this backwards again.

Tonight I went out for frozen yogurt with Billy and then we played Ghost busters and then went to see the Proposal with Krystal. I did not suggest the movie. Neither did Krystal. That's all I'm saying. Steak and Shake! And I'm also saying that these hands are the hands you make when drowning in Jello. Also, I eat volcanoes for breakfast. And I laughed so hard chocolate milkshake came out my nose. And I spilled my balls. The end.

Last night was . . . Sunday? Sunday I didn't see anyone! Oh wait! I did. So Sunday I slept in a gazillion years late and then went on a 35 mile bike ride while texting people frequently. After the bike ride I did laundry and cleaned out my fridge and texted Krystal and later Billy came over and I notarized stuff for him.

Saturday I went hiking with Krystal and then we met Dell and Garrett for Indian food, smoothies, and the Gabriel Brothers. That place is amazing. Then we went to TJ Max and then Starbucks then I went home to hang up my clothes and then back to Krystal's to hang out with and make up with Jeremy. We did that till after 3am. Oops.

Friday . . . This is getting fuzzy. The computers were down at work and I visited Krystal on her lunch break though I already had lunch myself. Then I went to the frozen yogurt place and read my book and ate yogurt. Later... we were with the boys I know . . . Oh! Krystal's fellowship thing with games and chips and salsa. Then we got Billy and went to El Rancho Grande. Found out later that Billy LOVES El Rancho Grande. Good. And then ... Walmart for a movie and Krystal's house to not watch the movie. I laughed so hard I made that weird noise no one else but the Three have heard. I think I'll call them The Three from now on. Anyway...

Thursday I saw Sister Hazel with Rachel at the Greene and we ate Turkish food (YUM!) and Coldstone and then afterwards I went to Krystals house apparently by surprise and watched some of the fifth element but mostly talked with my wonderful, wonderful friends.

Wednesday. Went to Chipoltle with the boys and Jeremy was just so nice. He said ALL KINDS of nice things to me all night. Made me feel loved. And then we picked up Krystal and Crissy (Krissy?) and went to see Transformers. We had to wait awhile and Billy did magic. There was some musical chairs happening in the theatre. And lots of talking. It was great.

Tuesday was my day off! Had lunch with Lauren at Amar India after visiting with Krystal at her work. Then . . . I think I went on a bike ride. I went on a bike ride, right? And after that we went hiking at twin creek. By 'we' I mean me and The Three. That was work! And the boys ran some of it! Goodness. And afterwards we went our separate ways for showers and I dont remember what happened after that. Did we get back together? I thought we ate dinner together. Somewhere. Applebees! We went there and Jeremy was all excited about his new phone! Then we did something or other. I dont even know. Jeremy's house and we played battle of the sexes and I dont know how to weave baskets!

Monday I went on a bike ride with Krystal and Dell after work! That seems so long ago! I dont remember anything else.

Sunday Krystal and I went out to breakfast/lunch at Cracker Barrell. And then we went hiking together for the first time. It was muddy but it was so much fun. Krystal can sure move along fast on those trails! And afterwards I went on a bike ride and she went to church. I dont know if I saw her after church or not. That was a whole week ago. What else do you want from me?!?! Haha. I expect her to fill in the gaps!

WE ARE ALIVE!! (Krystal Ann)

I just wanted to make sure if anyone DOES read this. They know we ARE alive. Life as we know it has been busy and full of happiness!! ;) I'm sure one of us might return to update you soon!?!?!


Off to go hiking with Sarah Jo!!! YEAAAA!!

Why did I wait so long?? (Krystal Ann)

.........Where do I start...?

I haven't been a very good friend, Sarah Jo started this so we could recap about what we did/do.. So, I am going to go back to last Monday and start from there... Yea, It something I don't want to remember but I now know how it turns out.

Monday: When my alarm clock went off I SHOULD have hit the snooze and pulled the covers over my head cause it was HORRIBLE!! I went to work, was doing my own thing, When I was invited to go somewhere where I just couldn't make my heart go. Long story short I ended up saying alittle to much through a text and I felt ended a WONDERFUL friendship. After work I went to City prayer as I do every Monday night, Afterwards I came home to change and then Garrett picked me up. Garrett and I really had a good talk just about life in general, Then we headed to Dell's to go to the S-Buxs, We hung out there for a long time, Then Dell decided he wanted to dye his hair. So, We then headed to Wal-mart where we decided to have some fun trying on clothes and taking pictures!! =) Once back to Dell's, Dell dyed his hair and then talked Garrett into letting him dye his.. Then Garrett took me home! Once home I talked to Sarah Jo on the phone which made my day complete!! I almost feel asleep on her so we decided we should just hang up and call its a night!!

Tuesday: When I woke up ALLLL I could think about was my feelings from the day before. =( Once out of the shower I saw I had a text. Once I saw who it was from all I could do was smile =) But then once I read it, I wanted to cry. To know that she cared SO MUCH about me and how I felt that she thought about ME first thing in the morning! Once at work it seemed to go by pretty fast, Which was good cause I had plans to go to dinner and hang with friends, I pretty much couldn't wait to get outta there. I got off work and FLEW home (The faster I got home the faster I got to see my friends!! =) Sarah Jo came and met me at my house and I drove us up to Indian food.. Indian food was enjoyed by all ONCE Sarah Jo and I realized Garrett was inside waiting on us... Crud, We were busy talking about Sarah Jo's book she has been reading to noticed he walked by.. =P I did learn something new about Sarah Jo Tuesday night and that is she likes things HOT & SPICY (Take that however you want ;). Then Sarah Jo and I became sad, we realized our Indian food was gone. To make us happy again we headed over to Coldstone! We then decided it was time for Dell to met up wit us, Which we went to S-Buxs to pick him up and head over to ULTA, Back to Bux to get Dell's & Garrett's car so we could go back to Dell's to play Uno Attacks & Twister!! =) Twister was all about laughs and showing body parts.. SHHHH ;) We layed on Dell's BIG bed. I played with Sarah's hair as she put her hand close to my body parts!! I took Sarah back to my house so she could get her car and we called it a night! I get sad when the night comes to a end.

Wednesday: Normally, I would be off on Wednesday... This one was my half day, which was okay!?!?! I went to work, Once I was off at 1, I meet my friend Misty in the parking lot to have a fun day with her kiddo, Tristen & Zoe. I had plans to meet Jeremy sometime later to talk about some things. I had a blast with the kids but ALL I could think about the whole 6 hours we were together was, 'How would my talk with Jeremy go later? When I first saw him how would I feel? Would he be so mad at me for how I acted that he would tell me what he thought about me? Would he tell me he never wanted to see me again? Would he tell me he wish he never would have met me?' Back to the kids, I asked them where they wanted to eat, I was informed we WERE going to the Chinese place, Golden Dragon =) Sitting there with the kids was a blast, Tristen informed me that everyone that worked there could speak a different language and that we couldn't know what they were saying!! Zoe told me she loved Mac & Cheese at the Golden dragon!! I promised them we would go to Smith park to the splash pad. What a fun time had by all. I LOVED sitting there watching them play with other kids. Making new friends. Watching them make new friends reminded me how much I wanted everything to be back to normal with my friends. BUT WOULD IT BE? I still didn't know. I honestly pondered this thought ALL DAY! We played at the park for 3-4 hours. By the time we were to leave the kids were ready which I was happy about cause I didn't wanna break their little hearts. We headed back to my house to get ready for church. On the drive home I realized that looking in my rearveiw mirror that seeing those two kids in my backseat is EVERYTHING I want. I want to have kids of my own but will it ever happen for me? Yes YEs YES it will!! =) What a crazy time before church trying to get two kids and myself ready for church. Tristen was so scared because the sun was going down that we would miss church. I informed him we were going to make it and WE DID!! After church It was Jeremy time... Honestly all through church I felt the need to throw up.. not because Jeremy does that to me, but because I had some HORRIBLE thoughts going through my head. I texted Jeremy to let him know I was done and ready. He called to let me know he was picking me up. I walked out the door RIGHT when he pulled up.. PREFECT timing! I got in the whole time praying I didn't throw up in his car. He wanted to go get ice cream but I had yet ate dinner, So, We went to Chipotle. Nothing had yet been talked about the whole drive up there and we were almost done with eating when he made a statement that would change how broke my heart was. We began our talk. =) We drove around for atleast a hour or more talking about feelings and what had happen and how we were going to fix our friendship from here on out!! I liked everything that was said by him and I enjoyed the part where he expressed some feelings of his own!! How it made my heart happy and made my smile on the inside! I got sad when we ended back at my car which was in the church parking lot. We got out and talked alittle longer just standing next to our cars, which I liked ALOT!! We hugged and the night ended. SAD =(

Thursday: So, I thought since all my problem I had on my mind were resolved that Thursday would be a WONDERFUL day.. BOY WAS I WRONG!! I started getting text message that made me sad and some alittle hurt or REALLY hurt. I didn't know how to deal with them BUT FIGHT BACK!! I did and it did nothing good for me. When I saw it was getting close to 1:30 I was so happy I could have SCREAMED, I was SOOO READY to see Sarah Jo and her smiling face because she makes me smile. When she walked through the door I knew something was wrong. I wondered what could of happen, only to find out it was a boy who hurt my Sarah Jo. GGGRRR, That made me mad VERY MAD. We went to Taco Bell where Sarah watched me eat and I TRIED to help her feel better. Then the floor fell out from underneath me. I was back at square one again. Sad & Mad all in the same moment, I didn't know which feeling I wanted to come out first. I had to go back to work and leave Sarah which really bothered me cause I knew she was sad and upset and I now was too and I just wanted to be with her to fix everything. Once I sat down in my seat at work it all I could do to keep myself from texting, So, I did! I HAD to get those feelings out, I didn't want them in there ANYMORE. It seems that the texting idea was a good one because it fixed everything once everyone found out what the real problem was. After work I went to weight in which just for the record I DIDN'T WANT TO GO, But I did . 4 lost. =/ After that I called Emily to go over to talk and she didn't answer. I couldn't take having these feeling inside so I just drive over there and prayed she was home and ready to talk. Everything was better by the time I left!! Smiles!!! I got to my car to see I had missed calls and text. I called Sarah cause she was the only one I could talk to right then. I met them at Applebee's.. (Them being Jeremy, Billy & Sarah Jo- The 4 back together again) They had been there for atleast an hour. We stayed another hour or so. Finally, Deciding to leave to go hang out at Jeremy's. We dropped my car off at my house, which on that drive I cried to Jeremy about LIFE. He listened and was very helpful, How did I think I could make it without having him as my friend? On the drive to Jeremy was prob the happiest time I have felt in a VERY VERY long time. The music in the car was so loud it was like it was Jeremy and I all by ourself just talking in the backseat! There was alot of feelings poured out again, Which I LOVED, I mean I am a words person after all.. ;) We watched a movie at Jeremy's, Well those three did, I kinda layed with my eyes close trying to recover from the stress of the day. I asked Sarah to play with my hair, But she couldn't cause the weird ways we were all sitting. So, I asked Jeremy because, Well he was there WHY NOT?? He did and it was liked! ;) I did return the favor!! When it was time to head home I was happy again, I knew Jeremy and I would be back in the backseat and able to be silly and talk. Which we did! ;) Night ended on a HIGH note!! The 4 were back together!

Friday: I really get sad when I think of Friday. I didn't see any of them on Friday. I did have a WONDERFUL time at my Ladies fellowship for church. Even in that roomful of women and WONDERFUL people I love, I missed Sarah. Wondered what Jeremy was doing. I wondered if she even knew I was sad, and if he knew I wanted to hear back from him. Sarah found out I missed her, I texted her!! We talked on my ride home. It was enough that I didn't feel disconnected from her anymore.

Saturday: I went to breakfast with Mom #2. It was good. I love spending time with people I LOVE! After that I called Sarah, We went to lunch then off to the bike store to find me A BIKE!!! =) I was exciting and scared all in the same moment! After all the confusion at Wal-mart off we went to meet Jeremy at the bike trail!! I had fun but the WHOLE time I felt bad that I was holding them back from going their normal speed. I tried to make up for it by going far. I hope it work!???! After the biking was over we went to Tropical Smoothie Cafe!! I found a drink I LOVED!! There was alot of touching and throwing of stuff down people's shirts there.. AHHA. After this we parted ways to get ready. Met back at my house to go to Indian food and Miami Valley Sport Bar. Nothing real fun about that part besides the talk Jeremy, Sarah Jo and myself had outside in the patio. ;) Left to go home. Sad once again.

Sunday: I texted Sarah while in church to ask about lunch! I sometimes get scared one day she will wake up and HATE me. Maybe one day just cut me off from Sarah Jo time. We had a GREAT lunch/breakfast at Cracker Barrel. YUMMY STUFF! I told Sarah Jo I wanted to go hiking for the first time... YIKES!! I did and I LOVED IT! I can't wait till I get to go again (Which by the way is tomorrow!!) Sarah Jo and I just walking and talking was so refreshing!! I enjoyed myself to much for words! We walked 3.3 miles. After an hour and half we called it over and she took me home! I got ready for church and headed that way! After church I went out with the youth group to Wendy's for laughs and good times! Dell asked me to go walking, I only had flip flops so to make me feel better both Dell & Garret both walked in flip flops!! What awesome friends!!

Now here we are back to Monday!! I told Sarah Jo tonight when I saw her I was thinking today about this time last week, I began my HORRIBLE week, Which turned itself around to a growing week for me. I realized I have grown alot, if all that would have happen before to the old Krystal, She would have locked herself in her room and cut the world off. With the help of GREAT friends, I found a new way to get the sadness out. BE WITH FRIENDS!!

Wednesday thru Saturday. Oops. (Sarah Jo)

Now I don't remember much about Wednesday. I went on a bike ride after work. I rode 25 miles by myself. Oh, but before that I went running at Smith park with Christine. And I talked to Jeremy on facebook and he made me feel better about things. He's good at that. After the bike ride I read my book until Krystal came over later that night. Right?

And Thursday was my day off. I had breakfast with David at the Waffle house and he said things that made me upset with Billy and Jeremy. I had lunch with Krystal afterwards and apparently made her upset with things David said too and it was awful because she was already having an argument with Em. It was awful. After that I went home and got a phone call from Jeremy. He fixed the me being mad at him part but the me being mad at Billy part is still there. He asked to see me later after he had dinner with his family and I got done running. So after those activities he and Billy picked me up at my house. We went to Applebees and Krystal joined us a little later. We watched Tremors at Jeremy's house after that. It was so nice to have the whole group together again but it wasn't the same, exactly. It was strained at times. At least for me. And I don't know how long that will take to get back to normal. Soon, I hope. But I'm not feeling optimistic. I'm just feeling hurt.

Friday night I went to my aunts house for dinner and then after that went home to read my book. Krystal called me after her PMS night and we talked for awhile. I think that was the highlight of my night.

Saturday after work Krystal and I went bike shopping and after a small fiasco got a bike that actually worked for her. We met Jeremy at the bike trail and biked 17 miles. We all got sun on that one. I like biking so very much. And its better with friends. Then it was smoothies at the Tropical Smoothie Cafe. Yum. We all went home to shower and met at Krystal's house afterwards and then to Indian food. It was delicious. Of course. And her friend Katie was there with us. Jeremy's made him sick. That was sad. Coldstone afterwards and then off to a bar I don't remember the name of. We played darts silly and met three other people whose names I don't remember. The bar was smoky so we went outside to talk. That was my favorite part. Eventually we were ready to go and Krystal took us back to her house and Jeremy took me back to mine. I think I let my grumpy show too much on the car ride home. Oops. Then I finished reading my book before bed. It ended the same way it did last time I read it. Weird.

Tuesday and Indian Food! (Sarah Jo)

I could skip right past the preliminaries and tell you we had Indian food Tuesday night. Wonderful, delicious Indian food. Now that THATS out of the way... the "we" was Krystal, Garrett and myself.

Dell was busy doing something or other. Anyway, Garrett smelled all kinds of good and Krystal and I told him. That is, when we finally saw him. Apparently we were so busy talking in the car we didn't even notice him walk past us into the restaurant. Well, you know how girls can talk!

Krystal moved up to a 3 and I got a 5 and we both had fire in our mouths. I'm pretty sure next time I'll ask for extra spicy. Probably. I think. When is next time? I could eat it right now! After that we went to coldstone for some bad decision making that tasted really good. And we met Dell at Starbucks so he and Garrett could get their fix. As a group, they took my Ulta virginity. It didnt hurt at all though my feet did get a little wet. Weird.

I think we went to target after that. We did! And then back to Dells house. My favorite part was the laying on Dells bed part. And the part where Krystal played with my hair until all my worries buried themselves too deep to bother me. Eventually that part was over and we played a hilarious couple of games of twister and Uno Attacks. I was also a virgin to these games.

So after the long night of violations, Krystal took me home. To her house. You know what THAT means. Haha. No, my car was there. Get your mind outta the gutter!

Those three are just so much fun. And they are uplifting and positive in healthy, healthy way. I'm so glad I got to spend time with them. It made an otherwise stressful day that much better.

Monday = Dollar bowling. (Sarah Jo)

My book was calling me after work but I didn't answer. Instead, I took a shower and ate dinner (mmm, pita, hummus, spinach, turkey!) and Ashley came over and visited me. Then we went dollar bowling with Katy, Rachel, Jeremy, Billy, Heather, Matt, David, Krissy, and other people I didn't know. I danced more than I bowled. David was really nice the whole time. I appreciated it.

When I came home I got to talk to Krystal on the phone. We talked until she nearly fell asleep on the phone. Haha. And THEN I got to read some of my book.

Dear Book, I love you.

Lonley Sunday (Sarah Jo)

I spent the whole day alone doing good-for-me things like my 20 mile bike ride, 1.5 mile run, and then the uphill walk. And I lifted weights. I went to the grocery and did my laundry and dishes and cleaned my rooms. Yes, rooms. At first I was horrified by the idea of spending the whole day alone. I wasn't sure I could get through it without getting sad.

But Krystal talked to me on the phone and texted me. And I did feel sad and worried but she was too and that made it okay. I didn't feel lonely then, just temporarily alone. And I worried myself sick. I actually couldn't eat I was so worried about it. But then something happened at home that changed my perspective. There are so many bigger things in life to worry about than what a boy thinks of me. I know it seems really important at the time, but all these HUGE things have been floating around my head trying to get my attention and I just kept seeing his face and nothing else. I don't want to do that anymore.

So, as soon as I realized this, I realized I was hungry. And I didn't have groceries. So I fixed both of those problems. And I only got healthy things at the grocery. Its really hard to binge eat when the only things in the house are spinach, granola bars, hummus, and canned soup. Okay, there are other things, I was just trying to make a point.

Anyway, sometime during the laundry and the dinner part, I remembered that I love to read. So I got out a book I like and started reading it again. Now, my house isn't a safe, happy place to be. It makes me anxious and stressed. But I was reading there in my room with all the lights and the AC on and suddenly that protective bubble I used to have in there just popped back into existence. Suddenly it wasn't my bedroom anymore but my safe place where everything is okay and I'm happy and content. Even alone.

So I know its taken me a long time to get to the point but the point was this: Now I remember how okay I was with being alone. I'm going to try really hard not to forget again.

Saturday Again. (Sarah Jo)

I was so tired at work from staying up too late the night before, but we were really slow so I got to go home early. Also, the slowness allowed me to send text messages I would later regret. Stupid text messages. When I got home I went straight to my room for a nap and it was great. So very, very great. Of course, before the nap I texted Krystal and Jeremy and Billy and got replies from two of the three. Guess which two? Haha.

Eventually it was time for me to go to the comedy club with Katie, Rachel, and Ashley. I'm the only one that actually arrived on time, but that's not so unusual, I suppose. We went to the Funny Bone at the Greene. The place was nearly empty except a few tables and one baccalaureate party and one bachelor party. That made things interesting. My friends were all drinking and I was the driver. There were all kinds of interesting sounding drinks but I kept thinking about how I would rather try new drinks with Jeremy and Billy around. Sad, I know. After the show we walked around the Greene a bit and watched concert they had on the lawn while all kinds of children played in the fountain in the middle.

We headed back to Rachel's house where she pulled out at least a dozen bottles of different kinds of alcohol from behind the cereal and even from the freezer. I didn't drink any but I smelled each and every one of them. Only the Kahlua smelled like anything I would put near my mouth. I like sweet drinks and this was all just liquor. Eww.

I left there a little early so I could see Krystal, who I apparently woke up. Being the good friend that she is, she got out of bed for me. We had just decided to go to Steak and Shake when Jeremy called and invited us to Steak and Shake. I'm awfully glad he called first because that would have been one awkward situation if we ran into one another there. Crisis averted. Sort of.

I say "sort of" because Krystal and I each had our own worries develop during the steak and shake outing that had us feeling stressed at the end of the night. The boys probably didn't even notice. They were pretty far gone after the open bar at the wedding and well, they are still guys. So after we all left steak and shake and Jeremy finally left Krystal alone in the parking lot, Krystal and I decided we had to drive around and talk about what just happened. It didn't really help matters with us being girls that over analyze everything and end up more confused in the end anyway.

Why can't things be more simple? I need an off switch for my feelings because I don't know how much more of this I can handle. Sometimes its all kinds of fun. Sometimes its confusing. Sometimes it hurts. Most of the time I'm not sure what comes next.

Virgin Blogger!?!?! (Krystal Ann)

Okay.... So, This is my first time ever EVER writing in a blog before... Hang in there while I get the hang of it, Please!! =)

I know poor Sarah Jo has to be mad at me by now for taking SOOO LONG to even sign up to begin.. =) Well, I am here now and I PROMISE I will try my hardest to be faithful about it.

Instead of me going back and recapping on everything Sarah Jo herself has already done, I myself want to start fresh and clean.. So, when Sarah Jo and I get together tonight (MAYBE W/THE MEN) I WILL blog about it!!

I know you ready to see my side of the story and here it is... I THINK YOUR AWESOME!! =P

Friday Friday Friday (Sarah Jo)

My day off! I woke up early and had breakfast with Sarah at Cracker Barrel. So bad for me. Tastes so good. Sarah and I made up all kinds of other meanings for boat related things. All hands on deck. Lets get nautical. Snorkeling. Etc.

I took a nap after breakfast because, well, I could. Then I woke up and met Krystal for lunch at Subway. It refilled my need-people tank like nothing else. Haha. But lunch breaks are too short and then we had to go.

I was by myself again until it was time to go to the viewing. I saw Robbie there and we stood in line together. It was harder than I thought it would be. But then Robbie and I decided to have dinner together at. . . Cracker Barrel. I ordered the exact same thing I had for breakfast. It tasted just as good. And then while I was making terrible decisions, we decided to head over to Coldstone. Robbie went the wrong way on the highway and then we got stuck in traffic. While stuck in traffic I got text messages from Billy inviting me over to Jeremys. He said nice things that made me have girly feelings. Finally, we got to coldstone where we played "Birthday Sex" on my phone really loudly. Some girls started dancing in their seats to it. Haha.

After coldstone I went over to Jeremys house. I talked to the boys while we waited for Krystal to arrive. They told me about the wedding festivities and I told them about my day. We continued talking together when Krystal got there and then eventually decided to watch some awful movie. Superbad? I don't like those kinds of movies. Sigh. And I stayed up too late. And I was grumpy with Jeremy when I left. He didn't know it though. But I did get to drive Billy home and we stopped at Mcdonalds on the way home. I kept thinking about all the things I wanted to say to him and then said safer things.

I wish things weren't so complicated.

Thursday! (Sarah Jo)

Christine and I went running. Again. This time at the gym on the treadmill. I always feel like I can do more on the treadmill than in real life. And then I DO do more. So there. After that I had to rush home and shower and eat before meeting Katelyn at Kidd. I saw her for about an hour before I had to leave to meet Krystal at Starbucks.

We talked and laughed at Starbucks with Dell, Garrett, and Brian before deciding that we HAD to have glow in the dark finger nail polish from Walmart. Dell rode with me so I wouldn't be alone. I'm really glad of that because I probably would have gotten lost without him. Sadly, they dont have glow in the dark fingernail polish at Walmart. By this time I confessed to Krystal that I wanted ice cream from UDF and she said we could go. We went! I'm telling you that peanut butter sundays are the best thing to happen to ice cream in a long time. Yum. Of course then we had to go to Taco Bell so Dell could get some chicken burritos.

Apparently its illegal to be in the park after dark but no one caught us as we swang, took pictures, and generally goofed around at the park in Franklin. But then we got dirty and had to go back to Dells to clean up. The Golden Girls was on so we had to watch it a little, right? Right. But I was falling asleep on Dells couch so it was time to go. Thankfully Krystal left with me or I NEVER would have gotten home on my own. I really need to put the GPS back in my car. Seriously.

Wednesday? Yes, Wednesday. (Sarah Jo)

I left work and met Christine at the track to run. We walked a lap and ran a lap until we got to 1.25 miles. Oh, before/during/after this time I realized that something was horribly wrong with my phones ability to send text messages. So, after the run/walk I worked on that problem. Krystal was the only one that actually helped me. Thank goodness. It was all straightened out by the time I got to the gym. I walked with an incline for 25min and did the elliptical for 25 more. I got sweaty.

I had just enough time for a shower before I joined Krystal, Dell, and Garrett at Mcdonalds. We all laughed quite a bit and stole each others phone numbers. Then we went to UDF where I made a bad decision and got a peanut butter sunday with chocolate ice cream. That ended up being a decision that tasted very, very good. Yum.

At Dells house we played face DDR and Jassercized and did Tahitian hip rolls and all kinds of other crazy dance moves. Picture time was a lot of fun too! I just burped and it tasted like peanut butter salad. Eww. Anyway, we also showed off our tattoos to one another too. Haha. I decided I like those boys more each time I see them. I'm so glad I got to meet them!

Its crazy how new people just fall into your life and fill it up with happy times. Crazy and amazing.

Monday Evening and Tuesday Evening (Sarah Jo)

So after work Billy picked me up and we went to the park. We walked the first lap, 1.47 miles, and then started to run the second. I stopped running after about half a mile. Running sucks. But Billy was really nice about it even if I do suck. And it was nice getting to spend time with him. We walked another lap after the "running" lap. And then he took me home. After a shower I went out to Barnes and Noble with my friend Ashley and then came home. I texted Krystal!

Tuesday I went to the gym after work and kicked butt on the elliptical for twenty minutes before doing my weight training. I met Krystal at the park after that and walked for about an hour and fifteen minutes. We talked about feelings. Okay, I talked ALOT.

Then it was over to Jeremys house for a little rockband and a whole lot of apples to apples with Heather and Jeremys mom too. Heather makes some awesome queso dip and I suck at apples to apples. But I do love laughing and talking with my friends, so that always feels like winning.

Monday morning. (Sarah Jo)

I don't know about you Krystal, but all I ever dream about anymore is our little group. And the tenor of the dreams mirrors how I felt at the end of the night. Sometimes, I wish it would never end. Okay, most of the time I wish it would never end. But other times something happens when I feel unhappy about something and I just want it to be fixed.

And I'm sad about this coming weekend too but I'm going to focus on what happens today. I think I've been ignoring too many other things in my life lately. And I worry that the boys, I mean men, are going to get sick of us soon. I don't want that.

But mostly I just want to be driving around in the car somewhere with the three of you, knowing that we still have hours and hours together. Thats what I want right now.

Sunday (Sarah Jo)

I woke up at 12:30 after a long, long night. Ha. Jeremy picked me up at some point and we went for a hike after a brief visit with Billy at work. The hike included some pretty intense hills I wasn't prepared for but it was nice as it always is. We had to visit a pretty sketchy gas station for a bathroom break and hydration. I swear that bathroom looked like an ideal place for rape. Just sayin.

After the hike we visited Krystal to retrieve Billy's phone. Then, we kidnapped Billy for some Cassonos pizza and rock band. At first Billy denied remembering anything that happened Saturday night but then he finally admitted to the memories, especially after Jeremy found it necessary to repeat the things I said over and over again. Just in case, I suppose. They were all true, but goodness gracious. And then Billy made me uncomfortable and I didn't like that. (Unhappy face.)

When Krystal got done with church we met at her house. We walked around her neighborhood once. Well, three of us walked and Billy ran. Then it was off to Wendy's for some terrible service and questionable food. I decided not to partake of said food and Krystal came to the same conclusion.

Billy said we would run together tomorrow. We'll see what happens. My favorite part was when I was in the back seat with him. That's always my favorite part.

I have to go to bed.

Saturday (Sarah Jo)

I was alone after work for a long time and I hate being alone. I get grumpier as alone time goes on. So, I went to the carnival by myself but that just made it worse because then I was the only alone person around all kinds of not-alone people. And when I got home, a nap wouldn't work.

Eventually, Jeremy picked me up and we got Krystal and then Dell and headed over to the Indian restaurant. I really liked the food though next time I would get level five spicyness. I don't know how to spell spicyness but I like the way that looks. Anyway, it reminded me of skyline chili for some reason. I was really tired and not very much fun and mostly worried that the night would end soon because Krystal looked tired too and then I would be alone again.

So, I suggested ice cream even though that was a bad thing for both Krystal and I to do at this point. It tasted much good and I started waking up at this point. Still, was the night coming to a close?

But, after we dropped Dell off Krystal suggested we get Billy and go dancing. I think thats what happened. Anyway, I was really relieved to hear this. Once we had Billy we decided that Dave and Busters was a better idea. And I wanted a drink. Turns out, I drank all kinds of drinks and Billy did too. And, turns out, when I drink alot I get really honest. I don't know if I even want to record the things that were said in case people forgot them already and I don't want to remind anyone. But I guess I like thinking about them. I'll write them down somewhere else. Anyway, I like Billy when he's not drinking, but I like Billy when he drinks too. Yep.

I did feel bad for drinking so much when Krystal doesn't and Jeremy didn't, but they didn't seem upset with me. At least, they didn't seem upset through the haze of alcohol swimming in front of my face.

After Dave and Busters we had to stop at a rest stop to pee because Billy and I had to and then Mcdonalds and finally the dropping people off at home part. My least favorite part every night.

Friday Night (Sarah Jo)

After work Jeremy came over and we went for a bike ride together at the Franklin trail. 50min with an average speed of 14.8 miles per hour. Sparkpeople says thats 887 calories. When we bike, Jeremy is always in front of me. As soon as I catch up, he goes faster! I like that he challenges me. And I also like that I get to talk to him a lot. When I catch up. Ha.

Of course, showers happened after the bike ride and then he picked me up again this time with Billy in the car. Billy stuck his head between the seats and asked suspiciously what we would do together tomorrow. Silly boys. We got Krystal next and headed to Chipoltle after unnecessary debate. I mean, isn't it always Chipoltle? I still couldn't finish my bowl. I think the unfinished portion gets larger every time. Oh, and the boys working there were so cute with their friendly smiles.

Umm . . . I got to sit in the backseat with Krystal on the way to the Rave and I touched her inappropriately several times. She responded by putting her legs in my lap. Ha. I kept staring at Billys arm over the back of the seat and wanted to sink my nails into it again. I'm so weird. Its like when things get close to my face and I want to bite them!

Inside the movies we got lectured by the movie people about not stealing or putting our feet on the seats or talking during the movie. It aggravated me because: One, I don't need to be told all of that and Two, she was stealing my talking-to-my-friends-time. I didn't want to see that stupid movie anyway. I was just there for the social aspect. Stupid movie workers. I worried during the whole movie that I would bother the boys by not laughing but no one seemed to notice. Good. And I was terribly preoccupied with exactly how I was sitting and where my arms and feet would go and also how the lady in the row in front of us was just as fat as I used to be and I was a little horrified and also a lot relieved. I think about being fat and not being fat all the time. No one knows just how much.

The ride home was pretty uneventful, I suppose. I was tired and quiet and I think everyone else was too. And I get sad when its time to go home. I don't like home and I don't like being alone.

And now its really late and I have to work in the morning! I don't want to forget a thing. Krystal, help me remember!

First Post!

Krystal and I were talking about how we can't even remember what we've done when people ask because we do so freaking much. So, this is our place to put stuff and then later we'll be able to look back at it when we're bored or something. This is my best shot at everything I can remember, backwards. I'll just leave out work because that doesn't even matter.

Tonight: I ran and did weight lifting before meeting Rachel for "happy hour" at 56 degrees. The spinach salad was great but the wine made my head spin. Afterwards I walked and walked and walked with Krystal and we talked about everything that makes us sad and all kinds of things that make us happy. It felt great.

Wednesday: I picked up my new phone and played with it until Krystal invited me to go walking. I met her at church and met Garrett and other church people. We went to subway and then walked at Dells house. 

Tuesday: Jeremy woke ME up early and we went for a bike ride! Afterwards we went to our respective houses to shower. He picked me up again and we went to the BMV for his sticker. We had extra time so we went to the Sprint store and tried to stalk Billy and stopped by CVS and the pet store and drove all kinds of fast. The fast driving part was my favorite. Then we went to Golden Dragon with Krystal on her lunch break. Afterwards Jeremy and I went to his house to watch Dawn of the Dead and later Krystal came over and we ate dinner with Jeremys family. There was homemade ice cream and guitar playing and drum playing involved. We also played wii and guitar hero and I refused to hug Billy for awhile.

Monday: I met Krystal and Dell on the bike trail for a walk after work. I ran to meet them then we walked by the wall that said "I love Sarah Jo". Krystal and I planned and carried out operation decorate Jeremys car successfully. It involved several trips to the store, an awesome car, and the inability of my lights to go off. Stupid lights.

Sunday: I went for a run before meeting Rachel and Katy for an afternoon together. We went to the Greene and explored for awhile. Later I met Krystal at Taco Bell and she introduced me to her church friends. Then we went for a walk around her neighborhood. Mexicans whistled at us.

Saturday: I ordered pizza from Billy after work and apparently left an obscenely large tip and also an obsene comment on the web form. Nap. Later Krystal and Jeremy and I ate Arbys and then got Billy and we all went to the comedy club. After the comedy club we went back to Krystals for Land of the Dead. Silliness ensued. 

Friday: Bike ride with Jeremy after work. He had to work on the deck for awhile and Krystal was at church so I took a shower and got ice cream with Billy. Eventually we all met up and went to Dave and Busters for some gaming. I remember playing trivia and not dancing and also boxing. We had waffle house afterwards and played the penis game several times. I think thats the night Billy let me sink my nails into his arms. Also, Krystal discovered and I remembered that the boys are hilarious while drinking. Like, more than normal.

Thursday: Jeremy didn't go to the pub because the week before it made him sick. I remember hanging out with Krystal and Jeremy but I don't remember what we did. There might have been rock band involved. I know we ended up and the kitchen floor looking at toes. 

Wednesday: The visitations for Billys grandpa. Then we ate at Chick-fil-a. Krystal had to go to church so Jeremy and I went to his house and played wii with Heather. For a long time.